I’ve had this window sitting here for hours, with an inkling of an idea to express but no idea as to how to express it – very much like a splinter in my mind 
I’m hating myself for taking the Big Job @ IEEE right now, because I don’t think I’ll be able to do it. I’m not confident about my progress at work, so am somewhat afraid of what might come Tuesday when the boss gets back. I think I’m jeopardizing the project with Rudie with my inaction. In short, I’m having a pretty crappy summer.
It’s not that I’m not getting support – family and friends are encouraging, and good things have happened / continue to happen / will happen, but I’m just having a somewhat negative time overall. I’m actually looking forward to the start of term so that some of these responsibilities that I no longer want can go away.
Some might look at that last statement and think, “Grow up, buddy – real life is like that”. I know real life is like that – I’m just not ready for that yet.
Oh, well… long weekend coming up, so some time to decompress, do something fun, see the grandparents up in Sudbury, and generally have a better-than-sucky time (I hope). Oh, and a very much missed friend is coming this way in ~3 weeks for a 2 week visit, which will definitely rock. Best of all, 2 major annoyances will be over by then, and one will be winding down, so I’ll be mellowed out (maaaaannn…)
Back to the grind, I guess…
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